what we've become...

life.. how ironic it is...its a typical book.goes from one chapter to the next.n u cant undo what you have done. its stays that way. you just keep walking.u can only look back n look what has become of you but nothing more. every second in your life can pass by u in a blink of an eye, and before you know it the present state your in becomes a part of ur past ...so what?!what makes life so special so different to each and every one of us!. what is it that we choose to remember of our past that we want to carry on to the future the present!? we know that every action has an equal and opposite reaction.hell newton definitely knew it! every action we did in the past every word that we said be it a good word or a bad one ,we had an equally plausible reaction towards it ,and a reciprocating thought in our heads on how it would have been if it went differently!the opposite reaction?!.and hence our thought process and progresses in to a series of events through out our life time events that we might not even remember.but our brains stores it. n even the slightest similarity towards it to what occurred long ago be it a smell ,a sound, an argument, a laugh, a smile it triggers your past. i was standing on a sheet of metal which was over a well!don't ask me why i was standing on it i just was..!n the sound of the metal crumpling up and down n the sound it made as i walked across it triggered a memory in my head of me when i was a little girl...in pre school there used to be a big metal box!n i would climb on it n it would make the same sound! even if u listen to a song u that u heard 6 yrs ago maybe at the time u liked some one n u randomly hear it now 6 yrs later a rush of emotion just passes through ur head.even a familiar voice reminds u of some one u used to know....hence it got me to thinking that every thing we do in life n all the people we meet along the way what ever or who ever touched us in a good way or bad gets edged in our over complicated neuron box we call a brain whether we like it or not!n it keeps accumulating as the yrs go by.so i guess what ever u want to be or aspire to be in the present had everything to do with every moment you had lived up to that very moment in ur life. so our past 'IS' our future. whether we like it or not our past does come to haunt us but it is us who decides whether or not we choose to implant that thought in a positive or negative way. positiveness is by far better when it comes to an unfortunate situation or bad circumstance that happen many yrs ago. its all just chippie when things go right obviously.but even that should be watered down so u don't get a big head every time u think about it!...
so what have we become.a figment of our imagination of our selves to be?. every moment every significant person in our lives has an importance role to play in who we want to be. each event or person are like pearls making up a pearl neck less from one pearl to the next each has its specific position it takes n if we place each pearl with caution it might actually end up being beautiful. but u have to be careful with it, if one pearl breaks off the whole neck less falls apart.so life needs to be treated taken care of as a life itself! it has feelings it has emotion it just needs us to make it what we want it to be.and stop taking it for granted.

so what have i become.from the cradle to the grave what would i have achieved as a person as a mother as a wife.i hope i would become what i always wanted to be... that is a good person who with every god given bone in my body do something to some one at some point of time in my life that will be a hidden memory in there thoughts n when they hear my name or c my face in a picture or c something that reminded them of me i hope when they close there eyes they would see a good thought that rushes through there minds like a gush of wind across there face.and a deep breath.n a smile descends on there face because by then i may just be a memory the past.n what u were is what will be carried on in some ones mind some where in some part of our life...